Saturday, 14 July 2012

ALZHEIMER'S SMILE

                                                                  ALZHEIMER'S  SMILE

Lost. Where do i start. Memory fades. Mind blank. Can't remember anything... even my own name. What is happening to me? Young as i am, my mind works like that of my great grand father's. He died they said at 100+. No one knew his exact age. But he was the oldest man in our quarter. He forgot everything. His mind went blank. But he could smile. Always he did. Bright face, no words. Everything worked inside him - in his head: his mind.

 For me, it's a slow process. It feels like i am fading away; going somewhere inside me that no one can reach. I can't remember yesterday or the day before, or the one before that. But i know i did what my ancestor did. I smiled. I do always. It's my way of saying something pleasant to all who wonder what is happening to me. I say to them, "worry not. My mind is still alive." Words may disappear from my lips, fragments of thoughts from my brain, but i am still able to smile at life: to say with my face, "I love you". "Yes, you!", the reader of my mind.

Butterfly smile
Blue smile

Sunset smile
 Are you aware that my smile spoke those words to you? Imagine this: the next strand of thought just disappeared from my mind. What is it that i want to say. I can't remember anything. Like he who smiled his way to the great beyond, i do same now hoping that the next thing i want to say will not fall off. It did. So i smile. I do so now at everything. No one seem angry at me for it. They simply return my smile. At my age they said it should not be happening to me. But what is my age? How can i ask them? I am supposed to know. All who went to school know their age. School? Which school? Where? That too i am supposed to know. But i can't remember. So i smile. Each time i do it lights them up. I feel good inside about that. I have no thoughts of sadness, no feelings of tragedy, no idea of progress, yesterday, today or tomorrow. I'm gone to smile no more. Alzheimer's, or is it dementia, took me away. My name. My recollections. All gone. So i call me Smile... it's my only treasure. A few minutes ago i passed on with a smile on my face. Please allow me to smile once more... in peace. Smile.

Thursday, 3 November 2011

Making Mass Murder Look Nice In Libya

Please dont tell me that wars begin as accidents or miscalculations or some kind of misfortune or inevitable event. Indeed, all these elements can be factored into how wars start without doubt. But you know what? There are certain wars that are not products of accident or miscalculation on anybody's part. They are not curses from gods or misfortunes of any generation or some kind of providential manifestation. They are products of deliberate planning, careful and crafty wickedness dressed up as good enterprise in the name of any number of fancy excuses the aggressor may wish to manifacture- for good or evil. In fact, most wars are evil and avoidable. And the most recent war in our generation- the Libya war -was not just avoidable, it was totally needless and wasteful. It destroyed lives because powerful men sitting on super-powerful thrones wanted it to be so. Accountable to none of the victims, they used their corporate media power to demonise their perceived enemy in the eyes of the world and denied him any opportunity to reply in kind. They so throughly demonised their victim that their own constituencices began saying: "stop him now!", "kill him!", "despot!" "tyrant!", "dictator!", "blood thirsty!",  "He is murdering his own people". In other words, they programmed people to beg for blood. They made their own publics "blood thirsty" without knowing it. By way of auto-suggestion they made killing and war looked normal, welcome, necessary, inevitable and, in this case, easy, due to its provisional outcome (no NATO casualties; no prohibitive cost; all expenses to be ultimately paid by Libyans, including profits in oil and contracts to rebuild). They tell us that due to this attractive outcome more of this kind of killing fields needs to be created because they have now found a "template." And the good thing about templates is that you can easily follow a pattern. You know the beginning, the middle, and the end. It makes blowing up others look nice and easy. After all, you are not killing anyone, you are actually saving someone- the good ones. The bad ones are not killed. They are saved too in their tombs. On this basis, people are desensitised from feeling anything for the victim. Why should anyone feel anything for him? "Dictator!", "tyrant!", "he must be found and arrested or be killed." "That is what remains for us to do now." Do you remember who uttered those words in Tripoli a few days before the big murder? No outcry at all. We all watched the death toll of a local demonstration (at Benghazi) that was deliberately started to challenge state power climb form six, to a dozen. By the time it was 28, those who were desperate for war saw an opportunity and took advantage of it. They went to town with the alarming number of 1,000 dead, then it became 5,000, and eventually the big G word was factored in: Genocide! It was as if they badly wanted it to happen. Mass killing, they told us was going on, so it was morally compelling to move in, in the name of our common humanity to kill the perperators and do justice to them- for their own sake and ours. Alarabiya, Aljazeera, CNN, BBC, FOX, Euro News.... They all went to town with alarming fabrications about the Libyan "dictator", never mind that only yesterday he was the "Libyan leader." And suddenly Muammar became the baddest man on the planet. In the end they assassinated him and turned his body to what Castro called a "war trophy". The assassins laughed, danced, sang songs of joy and happiness, they read verses of the Quran and proclaimed: Allahu Akbar! several times, some of them, while holding bottles of alcohol. The fiercest looking militias were mostly bearded and looked stern- ready to shoot at anything and kill it. Ghaddafi was murdered in cold blood and it was made to look nice- even to Mama Hillary Clinton it looked "wow!", with a giggle. That's how nice assassination has become. The number of victims matter less. The ruling National Transitional Council the powerful North Atlantic Treaty Organisation put in charge of state affairs in the country reported to the world that 30,000 were dead and more than 50,000 wounded as a direct result of the war. This, we all know, is a conservative estimate. Others have put the number of dead at 100,000, while affected people number up to a million. Some lost homes, totally displace from Tawergha, Sirte, Bani Walid, even Tripoli and Misrata too (despite the brutality of the latter areas militia). The "bad guy" they manufactured this war for built the Great Man Made River to turn his country's desert green, he virtually wiped out illiteracy and malaria from his homeland; he provided free medicare, education- at all levels; 92% home ownership, with the lowest divorce rate in the world, and one of the lowest HIV/AIDS  infection rates in Africa and the world. He opposed international Zionism, human trafficking, prostitution, gambling, alcoholism, wife battering, multiple marriages, abuse of women's rights. The women of his country are among the most liberated in the Arab world, compared only to Tunisia, Egypt, Algeria, Syria, Lebanon and Iraq before the toppling of Saddam. He not only supported liberation movements in the Third World in the 1970s and 1980s, he gave them training bases in his homeland at great cost to himself and his people. These liberation movements his murderers call terrorist organisations. Yet when some of them won victory in their homelands, the murderers of Muammar were the first to embrace them for business and profits, while Muammar stepped back because he did not do it for profit but for love of freedom. Lastly, he supported Africas drive for independence in wireless connectivity and sought to free the continent from debt slavery by not borrowing himself from the Bretton Woods Institutions, while accumulating 144 tons of gold at home worth about $93billion, with foreign reserves and investments estimated to be up to $150billion- not in personal accounts, but as sovereign wealth funds. Yet they tell us, this man, Muammar bin Mohammed bin Abdussalam bin Humayd bin Abu Manyar bin Humayd bin Nayil al Fuhsi Gaddafi, who swore in his last Will and Testament that "there is no other God but Allah and that Mohammad is God's Prophet, peace be upon him", is a "tyrant!" and " brutal dictator" who deserved to be murdered along with all those who supported him in Sirte, Bani Walid, Tawergah, Sabha, Tripoli and other now silent towns of  Libya. I don't know of any bad leader in Africa and the Third World in contemporary times who did not plunder the national treasury and warehouse it in Western banks. Mobutu of ex-Zaire (now DR Congo), Bokassa of Central Africa Republic, Shah of Iran, Ferdinand Marcus of the Phillipines and many others played this infamous role. But Muammar has no foreign bank account, not a cent anywhere in the world. He did challenge both his NATO and NTC enemies to provide the evidence. Even in Libya we saw his spertan bedroom at Bab al Aziziya barracks to the eternal shame of Aljazeera and BBC in particular that were hunting for a Saddam type palace that did not exist in Libya. My bedroom is better than that of Muammar and I am not a bourgeois. So they made war nice and murdered an innocent and patriotic man whose mistakes they exploited to recolonise his homeland, murder his people, give us a new killing fields in 2011 and pretend as if nothing has happened, as if normalcy has returned to destroyed lives and cities, towns, tribes, clans, work places and homes in Libya. Ghadafi did not have to end the way he did. He had an option, but we know why he did not take it. "Let the free people of the world know that we could have bargained over and sold out our cause in return for a personal secure and stable life. We received many offers to this effect but we chose to be at the vanguard of the confrotation as a badge of duty and honour." He fulfilled his responsibility to his people as a martyr. For they too had pledged throughout the battle, since February this year, to stand by "Allah, Muammar, Libya wa bas". This pledge, he was convinced they will fulfill, no matter how easy NATO and it puppets may make their new killing fields look like.